Borderline Personality Disorder and Ambivalence Toward Love

Borderline Personality Disorder is a serious andtheir problem behaviors.
misunderstood condition. Despite the fact that muchIn many families, abuse and neglect take place in
has been written about it, it remains a mystery tovery subtle ways. Parents can be overly
many who encounter it.self-centered, resulting in the child feeling unimportant
I see BPD as a condition which results from significantor unlovable; they can demand emotional care-taking,
childhood trauma. Although not everyone whomaking the child feel responsible for their happiness;
suffers from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder suffersthey can have inappropriately high expectations,
from BPD, in my experience virtually everyone I'veleading the child to feel incompetent and inadequate
encountered with BPD also suffers from PTSD. Theor they can be overly-rigid and controlling, causing the
traumas these individuals experienced in early lifechild to feel helpless and overwhelmed.
have caused them to have debilitating symptoms.Children raised in families in which the parents give a
BPD sufferers are terrified of abandonment, but alsolot of contradictory messages (whether overtly or
expect to be treated in the same way they werecovertly) become angry, ambivalent and confused
while growing up. As a result, they frequentlyadults who are unsure of their own feelings and
provoke people to reject them in an unconsciousperceptions. Many of these people turn their anger
attempt to deal with their fears: if rejection isinward against themselves. Some act out in rage and
inevitable, at least they can control when and how itdespair. Some, if the messages were particularly
happens.crazy-making, fall into paranoia, dissociation or even
These individuals often have complicated, evenpsychotic episodes.
tormented relationships. They believe, deep down,Childhood trauma has a regressive effect on the
that they must have deserved the childhood abusepersonality and prevents people them from
or neglect and therefore have tremendousdeveloping psychologically into fully-functioning adults.
ambivalence around intimacy. They both want andThey function more like lost children, behaving
fear love, convinced that it's associated with crueltyimpulsively and irrationally; going to emotional
or rejection.extremes and vacillating between fury and
Because they feel like they're "bad" or "defective"desperation.
they engage in a lot of self-destructive behavior;They may be provocative, uncooperative and
some of which is a cry to be rescued. They also canchallenging, and yet, what they need most is to
be very hurtful to others, unconsciously re-enactingknow that they are safe, loved and understood. The
the dysfunctional interactions they grew up with.challenge for the therapist is to avoid playing into
Sadly, many people with BPD are seen more astheir expectations of rejection and instead provide
"trouble-makers" than as deeply wounded individuals.these individuals with the stability, healthy boundaries
The trauma they experienced as children might be soand reassurance they've always needed.
subtle as to have gone unrecognized as the cause of