Don't Be a Victim! Be a Survivor!

I am sitting here late at night watching Addicted,confrontations with us on a normal basis. I remember
trying to figure out where these parents might havemany nights hugging my Bible asking God to just
gone wrong or where might they have preventedmake it all stop as the screaming was getting louder
the issues their children face. Yes, sometimes there isand louder from my brothers room. Soon a physical
absolutely nothing they could have done, other timesfight would begin and I would worry about my little
I see that it is a broken home, molestation, abuse,brother. Though, again, I would not take a day back.
death, etc. I think about my 2 small children and tryIt made me who I am.
everything I can to not let them ever become aThen I went into a horrible, abusive marriage; never
statistic. I want them healthy, happy, and productivephysical, always emotional. Of course, he would never
in life. I think about my own life.admit it, but it was really bad on me. I still have
I am the product of a broken home. I have divorcedissues that I try to overcome every day. But, again,
and remarried parents. My father has been remarriedI would not take it back. It makes me a better wife
about 4 times. Not sure, I lost count. I know he hasto my husband now who treats me like a Queen. I
been engaged more than he has been married. Someappreciate him that much more and he appreciates
I have not liked so much, the one he is with now, Iwho I am as well as the things I do. He loves me for
adore. If they quit smoking, I will adore her evenwho I am which would not be here if it were not for
more. Ha. She is really great and I finally havemy past.
someone that I feel like I can call my step-mom.Now how can you be a survivor rather than a victim?
Funny I can say that at 31.If you cannot find a reason why you are going
My home was not so great growing up. I lived withthrough what you are and cannot figure out anything
my mom and step-father and most would say that Ithat you can use this experience for, you can know
was in an abusive home. I was definitely not happythis. Some day you will come across someone else
but never thought I was abused. Just in trouble a lot.who is going through something similar if not the
Looking back, yea, it was abusive. But just like I tellexact same situation. You can give them advice,
everyone I meet, I would not take a day of it backcomfort, and hope. I don't know about you but that
for anything because it made me the woman I amis all I need. It means the world.
today.CONTROL. Oh, how I see that this is the issue with
The reason I write this article is because I want toso many. Either you are out of control, need control,
tell others how to be a SURVIVOR rather than aor are losing control. I hate to say this but GET
victim. One thing I see in common when looking atOVER IT. You never had it in the first place and you
these "addicts," and please understand that I knownever will. Anyone who thinks that they are in control
they have a problem, my father is a recoveredof their lives is a fool. The moment you think you
addict, is that they blame the world for their situationhave control over your life, talk to someone who is
rather than themselves. My father wasn't there, Idealing with taking care of children, a home, and a
was abused, I had it all and it fell apart, I was usedbusiness after losing their spouse. Life will not allow
to being on top of the world and it didn't work out, Iyou control. There is no such thing. Control is an
couldn't meet everyone's expectations. Oh myillusion that you should NEVER buy into. As a Christian,
goodness. I want to just smack them in the face; orI know who is in control. If you are not a Christian,
at least their parents, who let them talk to them likeat least know this, you are not the one with control.
they are the ones ruining their lives. They could haveAnyone, Christian or not, can use simple logic to
used the Supernanny.know this. Learn to deal with the situations that you
I lost my brother when he was 23. He had an alcoholhave been given in your life rather than trying to
problem and late one night in a drunken stupordirect them yourself. Be measured by your reactions
decided to put an electrical cord around his neck andrather than your possessions.
take his own life. He did not go through with the act.Be a SURVIVOR! Know that you can make a
Instead, he passed out from the alcohol while thedifference through your pain. Know that there is
cord was around his neck. Because he was so drunk,someone you can help. Know there is a baby out
he did not wake when it cut off his airway and hethere who can use your love. Know that there is a
died. He was my baby brother and the only sibling Ifather in your shoes. Know that there is another
had. I miss him more than I can make anyonemother crying for her child just like you are. Know
understand. We went through that abusive householdthat there is another business owner, just like you,
together; side by side. When we were little, I usedfeeling out of control. Know that there is and have
to talk him into getting on my back in the morningbeen other kids counting the days until they are old
and take him into the kitchen for breakfast so myenough to escape their home. We have been there.
mom would not get mad at him for not waking up,You will make it and you CAN become an
which would inevitably start a fight. I miss my littleextraordinary person because of it. If you let the
brother. He had the most beautiful blue eyes youexperience better you rather than hurt you. Be a
ever saw. I would tell him all the time that he couldsurvivor and a hero rather than a victim or casualty.
do anything. He thought that he wasn't as smart as IParents, please stop bailing out your children. Know
was or could do the things that I could. I told him,that the more that you do, the more you are hurting
"Dan. We lived in the same house and went throughthem. I know. I have children and it would kill me to
the same things. You are just as smart as I am. Inot help them when they are crying on the phone
know that you can do everything that I have done ifbegging for my help. But that is when you have to
you will just decide to do it." He just never believedbe the parent rather than their friend. Sorry, but that
in himself and my parents and grandparents wouldis the choice you made when you had them. It killed
bail him out of every situation he was ever in. Heme to tell my brother no when he said he would live
knew better than to ask me for money because hein his car because he didn't have money. I couldn't
would get the third degree and then wouldn't get agive it to him because I knew it would go to drugs
dime. Though he would call me any time he wasor alcohol rather than to a place to live. My answer
proud of something just to hear me say "I am sohad to be no. It will never be enough and this will
proud of you. Go for it because I know you can doNEVER be the last time.
it." Oh how I miss him. My son reminds me of him soHow am I a survivor? Because I chose to be. We all
much and I want to be sure that he doesn't end upchoose to be the people we are. At some point in
the same way.life, we chose our path. I chose to be a survivor.
My father left when I was in about in the 6th grade.After I divorced my ex-husband, I found myself. I
I remember him driving away the day he left andfelt like Julia Roberts in Run Away Bride choosing
went 3 states away from us. I couldn't understanddifferent plates of eggs. I really had to figure out
him choosing this other woman over us. Danny...well itwhat I wanted to eat for dinner, what I wanted to
tore him apart and I don't think he ever reallydo on a Saturday, what colors I wanted in my
understood it. My father and I still have a bit of abedroom. I found that I enjoyed treating myself to
weird relationship. I adore him and always will thoughfresh flowers every week. It was a little gift to
it is a very distant relationship. I don't see him much.myself and was nice. It is the most proud moment I
It's just the way it is. I deal and I will just try to helphave in my life. I love my children, but finding myself
my children to deal with it as best I can.was my best accomplishment because I can help
My step father came in to my life and all hell brokethem find themselves through that experience. Chose
loose. He was nothing like my parents. He wasyour life. Chose to make a difference, if anything, in
military and all that came with it. He would dig throughyour children's lives or your spouse. They can change
the trash to see what we had eaten which wasthe world and you can be that backbone if you like,
always the wrong thing and would get in physicaljust choose.